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[Jun. 3rd, 2005|11:37 am] |
My thoughts have been drving me up the wall.
I want to go home.
I want to stay.
Can't someone make up my mind for me?
Good thing is, I talked to my Physical Therapist yesterday. Luckly, he cleared me for the Walk/Run Track. This is the 3rd step out of 4 to progress out of my holding cell here at PTRP (to heal) so that I may go on back to training. He hopes that when I meet with him on June 16th, that he may clear me for the last and final step of the program, Warrior PT. Once I get to that stage, I need to have 8 sessions, and then pass my pt test. My shooting goal is to take my pt test and be out of Ft. Jackson SC by August and off to Ft. Gordon, Georgia. Physical therapist says in 2 weeks, if he can't clear me for the next stage, i might as well go home.
That helped to make up my mind for the current moment. Inside, I still think I would heal better if I was to come home, and to come back to Army/Air Force in 6 months. Yet, I beleive if I was to do that, I would come back as a reservest, not Regular Active Duty. Why didn't I think of it before?
Last weekend, all my younger High School friends, Graduated. I am so proud of them. I wish I could have been there. Sadly, I havn't recieved any pictures either. *sigh*
Well, I mist be on my way.
Send my best wishes to everyone, along with a hello.
Hope to hear from some of you.
PVT Griser
120th AG BN/PTRP
5th Plt. Mad Dawgz
Ft. Jackson, SC
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[Dec. 13th, 2004|11:13 pm] |
It has been forever sence I last wrote.
I moved out of my fathers house. I work 3 jobs, the movies, pizza hut, and olive garden.
Last little update, I will be in town from the 20th till the 30th. Hopefully I will get a chance to get in touch with a few of you fokes and have a great time.
Miss you all.
Jessie |
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[Oct. 21st, 2004|12:13 am] |
The Mummy is more than just a cheap Ace bandage wrapped around a bag of bones – it's a fragile, time-weathered old spirit that contains many secrets and mysteries. Not quite as sophisticated as the vampire, the Mummy is however very much attuned to its hidden side, and a little afraid to be unwrapped.
You, the Mummy ego, are sometimes confused and skeptical about love, but as long as somebody's got a pair of scissors and a lot of free time on their hands, you'll play with them – carefully. |
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[Jun. 23rd, 2004|06:15 pm] |
Strange things happened today.
I went to the YMCA with my two sisters today. Because they are guy phenes (sp) they wanted to go take a peep at the skate park, so I walked over there with them. Then this group of kids calls my sisters over there, so we walk on over. Were talking to these two girls and a bunch of skater boys, and these two girls walk over to me. "Omg" they say. "You are so pretty!" All I could respond was "um, thanks?" I was lost for words. Here I am, standing at the YMCA talking to little kids in my grubbiest clothes and they decided that I'm pretty when they are the big bust, skinny little blonde chicks with perfect hair. I just don't know what to think.
Today, he calls for my best friends number. He says he wants to ask her questions. What is there to ask her, that you can't just ask me? I don't understand guys. He has been pushing me away for months. Heck, he pushed me right into another guys arms, and all of a sudden, he doesn't like it. If he doesn't like me, and he doesn't care about me, why is he all of a sudden making a big deal out of things? Guys, geeze.
Looks like I am now going to california for a while. I am so excited, yet scared at the same time. I guess it it just one of those things.
Havn't talked to many people yet, except for my best friend, and everyone I work with. I felt so special the other say when my old football boys gave me a call to say they miss me now that football training has started. Aww how sweet. They sure do light up my day. I promised that I would be around to hang out with and to go to their games.
Things at work have gone crazy. Seems like every department has one trouble or another.
Also I'm starting back up at pizza hut again. But this time it is in town and not in falcon. I will be a cook and a waitress. Yey! I havn't even started my first day there, yet when I walk into the store, I feel like I know them, we chit chat for a while and mess around, and then get down to business with talking to the mgr. All the fun is about to begin! Yey!!
Well, its time to go back to the YMCA to pick up the little sisters. Hope to talk to everyone soon.
Enjoy your summer! |
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[Jun. 21st, 2004|04:44 pm] |
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Hey hows everyone doing these days? long time no talk. send me a message once in a while. in the next few days, i will be posting how my life has been... hope to hear from ya. |
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[Mar. 17th, 2004|09:13 pm] |
You have a Calm Soul! Being calm and cool is what
you do best. You collected thoughts and always
positive attitude make you very bright and
logical. When theres a problem, you know how to
approach it, and solve it. Your friends rely on
you on their problems, and your shoulder for
their crying. You are peaceful, and enjoy
nature and freedom. You rarely get angry and
hardly scream, which makes you good with kids.
You seem to be in tune with the world and if
anything goes wrong, you always bounce back.
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You are a human shadow. If a loved one needs you,
you are always right at his or her heels! Your
deep social connection with human beings
produces your qualities of genuine caring and
charisma. However, at times you are naive to
the true nature of your loved ones. Remember
that humans' gift of free will does not always
lead them in wise directions. But your essence
of love and friendship represent the other
precious gifts of humanity. Overall you are a
strikingly valuable and innocent being who has
a lot to give.(please rate my quiz cuz it took
me for freaking ever to create)
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[Mar. 17th, 2004|07:34 am] |
( ) been drunk
( ) smoked pot
( ) kissed a member of the opposite sex
(x) kissed a member of the same sex
( ) crashed a friend's car
(x) been to japan
( ) ridden in a taxi
(x) had anal sex
( ) been in love
( ) had sex
(x) had sex in public
( ) been dumped
( ) shoplifted
( ) been fired
( ) been in a fist fight
(x) had a threesome
( ) snuck out of my parent's house
(x) been tied up (sexually)
(x) been caught masturbating
(x) pissed on myself
(x) had sex with a member of the same sex
(x) been arrested
( ) made out with a stranger
(x) stole something from my job
(x) celebrated new years in time square
(x) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
( ) had a crush on a teacher
(x) celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans
(x) been to europe
( ) skipped school
(x) slept with a co-worker
(x) cut myself on purpose
(x) had sex at the office
(x) been married
(x) gotten divorced
(x) had children
(x) tasted my own sexual fluids
(x) became a zombie and eaten people's brains
( ) lash out irrationally
( ) went to the movies just to make out in the backrow
(x) fooled around with a stripper to entertain people at a party
( ) felt the need to actually add something to a stupid survey
(x) touched a cat in an innapropriate manner
( ) oral sex
( ) thought these were gay
( ) had a long distance reationship
(x) cheated on someone
( ) answered the door in something revealing
( ) dreamed about beating your parents up |
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[Feb. 23rd, 2004|08:08 pm] |
You're Elemant is Wind. You're light-hearted,
care-free, kind, sensative, and mysterious. You
have friends and most absolutely love you. You
can be calm and soothing one minute and ragging
in anger the next so no one wants to get on
your bad side. You're beauty is inspiring and
magical.
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You are one of the few out there whose wings are
truly ANGELIC. Selfless, powerful, and
divine, you are one blessed with a certain
cosmic grace. You are unequalled in
peacefulness, love, and beauty. As a Being of
Light your wings are massive and a soft white
or silver. Countless feathers grace them and
radiate the light within you for all the world
to see. You are a defender, protector, and
caretaker. Comforter of the weak and forgiver
of the wrong, chances are you are taken
advantage of once in awhile, maybe quite often.
But your innocence and wisdom sees the good in
everyone and so this mistreatment does not make
you colder. Merciful to the extreme, you will
try to help misguided souls find themselves and
peace. However not all Angelics allow
themselves to be gotten the better of - the
Seraphim for example will be driven to fighting
for the sake of Justice and protection of those
less powerful. Congratulations - and don't ever
change - the world needs more people like you.
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Morpheus
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regular, plain old sex-- boring to some, yet you
seem to love it. hey, do whatever pleases you!
(and of course your significant other)
What type of SEX do You enjoy?
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[Feb. 22nd, 2004|11:46 am] |
Sorry Amber I stole this from ya...
1.Full Name: Jessica Leigh Griser
2.Birth date: 7/3/1986
3.Birth place: Texas
4.Eye Color: Brown
5.Hair Color: Shades of brown
6.Height: 5'1 1/2
7.Weight: not for you to know
8.What are you wearing right now: getting ready for work
9.What do you wear to bed: big t-shirt
10.What is your best feature: you tell me
11.Worst:
12.Do you wear contacts: nope
13.What about glasses: i once did
14.Braces?: i once did
15.Any pets: two bunnies in CO, a cat bird and dog in NY
Favorites…
16.Color: blue,purple,silver
17.Food: italian, mexican
18.Beverage: oj, cream soda, rootbeer....
19.Clothing store: depends on what i'm looking for
20.Animal: tiger
21.Day of the week: sat
22.Holiday: 4th of july
23.Actor:
24.Actress:
25.Band: depends on genre of music
26.Song: to many to list
27.Movie: top gun, aladin, poch, lion king, fried green tomatoes
scarry movies....i could go on
Of your friends, who’s the…
28.Smartest: andrew abdella
29.Most Fun: everyone is fun
30.Funniest: depends on the day
31.Weirdest:
32.Straightest:
33.Shortest: tiffany lacome, just an ich below me hehe
34.Tallest: brian(ny), simon(ny), justin(work)
35.Most hyper: tanya bebb
36.Prettiest: all are perdy
37.Most dramatic:
38.What are you afraid of: not being loved in return
39.Ever stolen before: everyone steals something in their life
40.If yes, what:
41.Ever smoked cigarettes: few years ago
42.Weed: (gotta try everything once)
43.Ever gotten drunk: jungle juice...
44.Ever done any other drugs: nope
45.If yes, what:
46.Ever kissed a boy: duh
47.Ever kissed a girl: on the cheek
48.Ever gone any further with a boy: ummmm
49.What about with a girl: nope
50.Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: nope :(
51.Do you prefer girls or boys: boys
52.If you could marry someone right now, who would it be: can't say
53.Do you want children: someday
54.If yes, how many: prolly two
55.Do you have a crush on anyone?: duh
56.If yes, for how long: sence i met em
57.Why don’t you just tell them?: i think i did
58.What is their best feature: smile, eyes, and heart
59.What do you look for in a boyfriend/girlfriend:
60.What don’t you like in a boy/girl:
61.What is the opposite sex’ best feature: tummy
Last…
62.Movie you saw: somethings gotta give, win a date with tad
hamilton, you got served, 50 first dates, along came polly,
miracle, butterfly effect, and the sneak peak of The Girl
Next Door (what do you expect, i work at a movie theatre)
63.Time you took a shower: just now
64.Person you talked to on the phone last: Justin M
65.Word you said out loud:
66.Person you hugged: Justin
67.Person you kissed:
68.Person you said I LOVE YOU to:
69.Time you actually did math: yesterday
70.Food you ate: chili cheese fries
71.Thing you drank: sprite
72.Song you listened to: Everywhere
73.Person who made you laugh so hard you cried: The Girld Next Door
(I fell off my seat)
74.Time you threw up:
What do you think of when you see/hear the word:
75.Red: heart, blood
76.Ghost:
77.Ribbon: track
78.Dust: Dustpan (my stalker at work)
79.Sand: the beach, dirty deeds
80.Beard: the one i made my dad cut off
81.Yellow: sunflower, summer
82.Grass: summer, relaxation
83.Corn: popcorn
84.Card: spiderman (matt todds new cards)
85.Club: gotta be 18 :(
86.Do you like board games?: yes
87.What is your favorite one?: shoots and ladders
88.Do you like computer games?: yeah
89.What is your favorite one?: ummm
90.Do you like sports?: yes
91.What are you favorite ones?: football, wrestlin, b-ball, tennis,
hockey, volleyball track
92.Do you play a sport?: bad knee
93.Do you like to write?: a little too much
94.If yes, what do you write?: thoughts, poetry, essays
95.Do you like to draw?: i can't draw, but yes
96.Do you like to read?: yes
Either or…
97.Pepsi/Coke: neither but other products, yes
98.Rain/Snow: dancin in the rain
99.Winter/Summer: summer heat
100.Spring/Fall: spring flowers, fall leaves
101.Mary Kate/Ashley: nope
102.Pen/Pencil: pens
103.Night/Day: love the night, live through day
104.Santa Clause/Easter Bunny: bunny
105.Math Class/English Class: english
106.Snakes/Spiders: hell no
107.Beauty/Money: beauty |
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[Feb. 22nd, 2004|11:26 am] |
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I'm lost in a state of confusion. Maybe its because I like to many, or want to much. But all I really want, is to know he's thinking of me while I'm away. To feel his touch when we are near....
Yesterday was funny, my friend Jessica was laughin at me because we went to Cold Stone on break and the cute guy tottaly checked me out. Now shes gunna make me go over there today and talk to the kid. lol
Theres this guy from my past that i have reaccuring thoughts about. What if I stayed, what if I move back. Does he ever think of me? Could someething ever happen? It's kinda on the crazy side. I loved the kid to death when I lived there. I loved every little thing about him, even through all the troubles. And years later I sit and wonder, what if. I miss his smile, I miss his laugh, I miss his touch. I'm sure a few people know who I am talking about because they loved him to at one point. Yet I still do.
There is a friend I met a while back, we call him Maverick cause there is too many Matt's to keep them straight. He's such a sweety, but he never calls or visit's me. It's always me who has to call him and visit him. But we're working on that. He races his new 2003 neon on Academy with all this buddies, has his own apt. now....and he's just workin his life out latley.. very proud of him. We're gunna start hanging out more...maybe something will be said or done.
Then there is my friend Jake.. who I have liked for quite some time... but we havn't really hung out or anything until this year... And it has gone from there.. but that bad thing is just recently.. my best friend she likes him... but she hardly ever talks to him unless i'm there and the whole bit. But I feel bad because she knows I have liked him for a while.. and that things could start up between us.. but she knows it wont cause she likes him.. and i'm just lost there. I don't want to hurt her.
Last one I like would be Nick. He's a soph. in my school who just moved here not to long ago. He's the sweetest kid, yet kinda shy. (what's with me liking shy guys.. geeze) One day.. i asked to see his phone, so I could play a game as always.. and he hands it to me with his number on there... and I asked if that was a hint and he just smiled. And he gives me hugs every day now...
im pathetic and stupid, yes i know. I just don't know who to go for, or what to do. anyone got an opinion?
I guess I'm just lost in feeling. I hope to find relationships like the ones I have had before. To feel loved and needed. To be in someones arms and know thats where I belong. To not worry about the world around me. I'm looking for too much, yes I know. |
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[Feb. 20th, 2004|09:38 am] |
These days, I'm leaning more towards NY... more and more each day actully.
1.Not only do I know alot of people and my friends are up there.
2. Family is all around in diff parts of NY.
3. More things to do, career wise and ocupying time.
4. Better colleges (you would never imagine that college is cheaper in NY then it is here in CO.)
i could prolly come up with many reasons to move back... but most likly, i will end up doing so. Even though I am leaving my father (who i moved down here to be with in the first place). He supports my decisions. And there is no need for me here. My dad is now engaged with Julie. They have a house and a barn and to many cars. lol Of cource i would have to leave them the money to pay off the rest of my loan for the car i bought, but thats not a big deal.
sorry my thoughts are all jumbled and don't make any sence. I know this for sure, I will be comming up to visit this summer for 3 weeks, with or without my friend. And I was wondering, if I do decided that I want to move back, is there anyone intrested in comming out to CO to drive with me back to NY?
ROAD TRIP!!!
well, my crazy jumled thoughts are over... i will talk later. |
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[Feb. 18th, 2004|10:31 pm] |
You are guided by light. While all can be bad
around you, you still stay calm and make things
better. There aren't a lot of people in the
world like you. (Rate my test)
What force is your soul?
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| moments in life |
[Feb. 8th, 2004|09:36 pm] |
There are moments in life when you miss someone
so much that you just want to pick them from
your dreams and hug them for real!
When the door of happiness closes, another opens;
but often times we look so long at the
closed door that we don't see the one,
which has been opened for us.
Don't go for looks; they can deceive.
Don't go for wealth; even that fades away.
Go for someone who makes you smile,
because it takes only a smile to
make a dark day seem bright.
Find the one that makes your heart smile.
Dream what you want to dream;
go where you want to go;
be what you want to be,
because you have only one life
and one chance to do all the things
you want to do.
May you have enough happiness to make you sweet,
enough trials to make you strong,
enough sorrow to keep you human and
enough hope to make you happy.
The happiest of people don't necessarily
have the best of everything;
they just make the most of
everything that comes along their way.
The brightest future will always
be based on a forgotten past;
you can't go forward in life until
you let go of your past failures and heartaches.
When you were born, you were crying
and everyone around you was smiling.
Live your life so at the end,
you're the one who is smiling and everyone
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[Feb. 8th, 2004|07:38 pm] |
Eight Gifts That Don't Cost A Thing:
1. The Gift of Listening- But you must really listen. No, interrupting, no daydreaming, no planning your response.
2. The Gift of Affection- Be generous with appropriate hugs, kisses, pats on the back and handholds. Let these small affections demonstrate the love that you have for family and friends.
3. The Gift of Laughter- Clip cartoons. Share articles and funny stories. Your gift will say, "I love to laugh with you."
4. The Gift of a written note- It can be simple. A "thanks for the help" note or a full sonnet. A brief, hand written note may be remembered for a lifetime and may even change a life.
5. The Gift of a compliment- A simple and sincere, "You look great in red" or "You did a great job" or "That was a wonderful meal" can make someone's day.
6. The Gift of a favor- Every day, go out of your way to do something kind.
7. The Gift of Solitude- There are times when we want nothing better then to be left alone. Be sensitive to those times and give the gift of solitude to others.
8. The Gift of a cheerful disposition- The easiest way to feel good is to extend a kind word to someone, really it's not that hard to say, "hello" or "thanks a million".
One Day At A Time:
Our lives are made up of a million moments, spent in a million different ways. Some are spent searching for love, peace, and harmony. Others are spent surviving day by day. But there is no greater moment than when we find that life, with all it's joys and sorrows, is meant to be lived one day at a time. It's in this knowledge that we discover the most wonderful truth of all. Whether we live in a forty-room mansion, surrounded by servants and wealth, or find it a struggle to manage the rent month to month, we have it within our power to be fully satisfied and live a life with true meaning. One day at a time - we have that ability, through cherishing each moment and rejoicing in each dream. We can experience each day anew, and with this fresh start we have what it takes to make all dreams come true. Each day is a new, and living one day at a time enables us to truely enjoy life and live it to be the fullest.
To My Friends:
When you are sad
I will dry your tears
When you are scared
I will comfort your fears
When you are worried
I will give you hope
When you are confused
I will help you cope
and when you are lost
and can't see the light
I shall be your beacon
shining ever so bright
This is my oath
I pledge till the end
Why you may ask?
because you're my friend...
When You Are Lonely
And You need someone to talk to
Remember that I am always here for you
I will hug You when You're sad
I will be with You when You pray
I will laugh with You when You are happy
I will cry with You when you are unhappy
I will move the mountains
So You can walk
I will shut everone
So You can talk
I will dance with You
I will jump to the sky if I could
I'll do everthing for you
'Cause You're my Friend
And I Love You! |
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[Feb. 4th, 2004|04:44 pm] |
Sunday. Didn't get to see the Super Bowl, athough wasn't teams I was really intrested in, plus I have no one to watch it with. Just wanted to see the comercials and halftime show. Heard lots of rumors about it. And will be watching comercials in class. But instead I had a visiter. I felt so specially for a little while. But I feel bad cause we got busy and I feel like I just left them
Today, was an odd day. Andrew and I had to teach a group of freshmen. They hardly answered anything. I think my kinder class would have more participation, ideas, and answers than the class I was in. We have another one to do on wens.
The concert was great!! I saw so many people I knew. A bunch of people from work ,and Sandcreek I know. Then Zack and his gf, Little Murphy and his gf, and so many others. Halfway through working in concessions, some people come up and give Jess and I their tickets because they want to leave. ROW D!! We were like right there! I was like.... HELL YEAH!!!! But of cource Jessica's brother has to be an ass and ruin the night for me. Next time, I'm buying tickets. And if I don't bring a guy, I will find a guy there. hehe That will be intresting.
Tomorrow (Monday) will be a day to float through school, hopefully. Get to sleep in, then do my geometry in English Millers classroom. Then go to geometry. Then to see my Kinder class. YEY! Then I have a game at home. Not sure if I really want to stay or not. I should, but I don't really need Ash on my tail all night, and I'd rather be in the stands talkin to friends and taking pictures. I know, thats exactly what I will do. Works for me. But who will come to the game with me? *sigh*
Not sure about this whole NY thing. There is this pull, to move back to NY. That my life should be there. I should be home comforting my mother when she needs it most, yet we hate eachother also. I would have more college benifits, and jobs, and so on. My life up there was fantastic, except for the family part that is. But I don't want to move up there alone. And I want to stay here. I can't/don't want to leave a few people. It hurts to just think about it. Even though they are all friends, except 2 I wish to be more someday (*sigh*). I...just...don't...know. Don't know what to do about it, don't know what to think about it. Can't talk to parents cause one will push me one way, while the other pushes me the other. Can't talk to the best friend about it, because shes been here all her life, and parents want her close, and so hard for her... and I know my friends will either 1. push me one way or the other 2. tell me its my choice or 3. have no opinion at all. so sad. But then again, it can help also.
Tuesday was stupid... realized how immature people can be.
Wensday (today) we should have had a snow day, but then again after noon, the roads don't seem that bad, only in spots. |
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[Jan. 26th, 2004|09:52 am] |
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latley, i have been feeling guilty, but im not exactly sure why. I think o know a piece of it though.
I realized a few days ago, that i have huge feelings for a good friend of mine. They first started last year, when i heard him play his guitar and sing his own lyrics oneday after school. Then this year, with us both being in football we became much better friends. After thinking for a while, i found out that this "crush" really started at a football dinner one night. We pulled two cars together and had our own tailgate party with music and just sat there talking all night long. sence there the feelings have just grown i guess.
I came to see last night, that we both have feelings for eachother. This is all great, but the bad thing is he has a gf. Not only is she 3 years younger than he, but shes like inlove with him. Their relationship has been on the rocks sence it started, but it seems to get worse by the day. Her parents hate him. She grounded for 6 months and can't go anywhere without her father because they don't want her to see him. Teachers are aware, and they can only see eachother in the mist of the crowded hallway.
I guess what im trying to say is i want them to work out, yet i don't. I feel guilty about it. Should i? |
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